I was spending some time quietly worshiping the Lord while reflecting on some things going on for Kara and I. A couple of things we’d like to see happen sooner rather than later.
As I was thinking, I heard the Lord speak very clearly,
“There are two things I don’t ever want you to be. They are driven and desperate.”
I felt the words ram my heart like a hammer on a gong. But instead of a noise, it produced peace, a stillness that filled me as a result of knowing why I shouldn’t ever have to feel that way.
Driven can be defined as a person who is motivated by his or her thirst for success. Desperate can be defined as a hopeless state of being in which a last-ditch effort is made when everything else has failed.
Both of these can be easy to fall into especially when our dreams aren’t being fulfilled as fast as we’d like them to be. When we take matters into our own hands, we become driven, compelled forward by our need to have our dreams make us successful. We’ll do anything, sacrifice anything, in order to make them a reality. We must because until that dream is fulfilled we’re not sure who we really are.
When we become desperate, we’re ready to latch onto any answer that plops in front of us. Wisdom and discernment are terminated by our need to move forward no matter the cost. The big problem is in the very beginning of the definition – hopelessness. When we’re desperate we are hopeless.
And now we get back to why we don’t need to participate with either of these. The answer to the compulsion to drive our dreams forward is remembering what we already are – a success. The Perfect Love of God has already made us as successful as we’ll ever be which is far above anything the world can attach to our names. A dream, fulfilled or not, can’t add anything to who we already are and it can’t take anything away. Circumstances don’t get to change who we already are. We’re already a bunch of success stories. Period.
Similarly, the way we answer desperation at the door of our hearts is by remembering who we are, our perfect union with the one who will never stop working in our favor. We don’t have to grip the solution desperation drops on our doorstep because our Perfect Father is busy preparing something that will be good for us in the short-term AND long-term. And he’s doing it because he loves us.
And hope, it lives in us in a person who is living his life through us. Hopelessness is a contradiction to who we are! Expectation can be disappointed but hope cannot.
It’s common to feel the pressure of time on our hearts regarding dreams and passions. It’s easy to bow out of the fight and take matters into our own hands or accept a terrible solution out of desperation. But take great courage and stay in the heat a little longer. Let’s give the one who loves us more than any other the time he needs to prepare our destination.
Jesse and Kara
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